They say, the toughest steel goes through the hottest of fires.

In fact, it does.

It is no secret that after having come to Kolkata, innumerable good things have happened to me.

Yet, I refuse to love living here.

I still prefer Kalimpong or even Siliguri.

The question is,

Is momentary happiness so unimportant that

we must forgo is for the happiness

of a future

?

Everyone around me believes...

Struggle today so that you can reap the benefits tomorrow!

As if today is Devil's time.It's sinful to enjoy it.Why?Because if we have a bad day tomorrow, it would be the fault of the short-sightedness of today!

The trouble is,

we may not even see that tomorrow

we have been working for.

What if I die today?

Will it be because I refused to work overtime yesterday? Or that I didn't study during my semester study-break?

Sorry! I have a problem with this theory.

Even then, I must leave the comforts of my home (and, hometown) to travel 600 kilometers to...cry hoarse explaining to myself that it's the best thing to happen to me, to being sexually assaulted, to cringing at those strangers I struggle to call friends,to having myself being branded a 'blackmailer' and 'spoiler of lives', to being alone, to missing home and everything else...

All this for building a better future, something that may not even exist.

They say,"Carpe Diem".They mean,"seize the day":

And I know there is no tomorrow.

It's today that's important.

Nothing else matters.

Kolkata (is it Delhi next?or Chennai?) might convince me of a million things,including turning into a stranger.

But it's me who's sacrificing.

For an ephemeral tomorrow.

The toughest steel might experience the hottest fires, but that's no steel.Only a tougher version of it.